Saturday, August 20

Piercing (II)

Hello baby.
Mama loves you.
Will take good care of you,
so don't you worry.
Please be healthy okay?

Sunday, August 14


1. Went out with Aisyah today to Sungei Wang, just the two of us and I swear today is one of the most relaxing and comfortable hang-out with a friend that I had for a while.

2. Makan at Pak Hailam and it was not delicious at all but I still tried to finished it and failed miserably.

3. Found that exact shop we're looking for (after hours of searching the entire floor) and there goes our beautiful nerve-wrecking of 30 minutes - but totally worth it! Couldn't do mine as it was so expensive but that's okay.

4. Cut and wash hair.

5. Finally she gave me a brilliant idea so we head straight to Sunway Pyramid and get it done. Beautiful! Tho it was not center enough, it still looks nice to me so yeah no probs.

6. Rest and sleep. Great day, thank you love *heart-emoji.jpg*

Saturday, August 13


1. I was awake quite early, it was nice and cold and cuddly. I feel so comfortable being wrapped in my blanket and pillows. They have accepted me as one of their own but after few hours of lazying, I have to break their trust because - !

2. #iKONCERTinMalaysia and #iKONCERTinKL !!!!!!!

3. Met Iman a.k.a Wufheii and wow she is so pretty in real life too. But despite of the fact that I couldn't speak English, we still get along very well. Glad that we share the same bias and OTP so yay BinHwan for lyfe!

4. I am one of those lucky fans that get to join in their Sound Check Party, where we get to see them much earlier than anyone else, they wore casual clothes and sang three songs. The speaker is so freaking loud, I love it! Swear to god that they look so good in real life, especially my bias Hanbin.

4. Two hours somehow feels only like 20 minutes, it never felt enough. Didn't get to record much during concert as I was more into enjoying myself with the loud music and I did jump a lot while waving my beautiful red KonBat like crazy. I sing along to each songs and it felt so great. I wish I get to see them again in the future.

5. BAGUS is word of the day, where they kept saying it for more than 100 times. Oh you guys are so adorable.

6. I saw BinHwan moment twice and I looooo-oove it!

Thursday, August 11


Great day for me. I'm blessed.

1. Teamwork guys. You can never go wrong when you have a team where each one of them knows what they're doing and they do it right. This feels so good.

2. Oh my god does anyone of you watch W - Two World? It is so good that I find myself keep on watching the first few episodes while waiting for new ones. And oh my god did you watch episode 7? It is so good I literally screamed and gasped and laughed and burst my heart out throughout the one hour duration. Goddamn.

3. Meeting with friends once in a while also feels so good when you had a rough week. There they are being annoying as fuck. The kind of annoying that I love.

4. Suicide Squad. It wasn't that bad and for a first timer like me who didn't know about Quinn and Joker - gawd they're beautiful. And oh my god she's hot.

5. You're home quite late and alone. Late night shower and sleep. What could be better than that?

Monday, August 8


Yesterday I received a text message from an unknown number and I'm scared *now panic af*


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Wednesday, August 3


Sharing new songs on his facebook since August 1st and I was thinking maybe I should do it five days a week. Just sharing with him because those songs are so meaningful and means a lot to me - the lyrics especially. He never really listens to the songs that I shared with him and even though he did listen to 'em, he didn't remember.

-- which now I know that we don't really share the same interest on the same song genres. And that is okay.

There's this one time many years ago, I told him to listened to this specific song and says that I love it so much and you should try it too because oh god I love the lyrics. Really helps in expressing the feelings and words that I couldn't say. 

And a month later, when we were having a conversation through phone calls, he tells me that he just discovered a new song and he would like to share with me. I said OK, what is the title? And no shit it is the same song that I asked him to listen to last month.

And he saw it on his best-friend's blog a.k.a ex-gurrrlfriend. And he didn't even remember that I told him about that song first.

I was 16 and I was immature and this was pretty big deal last time, at least to me. 

Not anymore. Do whatever you want to do. It's not that important anyways.

Tuesday, August 2


There is this one night in Tokyo that I get to go out with my friend, just the two of us. And I thought, "Finally~" with a small sigh of relief. It was only for few hours though, but I was so happy.

From Oshiage using Hanzomon Line (purple) to Otemachi and change train to Tokyo using Marunouchi Line (red). It was around 8pm and there's still a lot of people on the train. Middle school students still wearing their uniforms. Working men and women. Couples holding hands (some even do PDA tho). Elderly with their cane. Some of them reading books, some just listening to their earphones, some just staring blankly, some sleeping etc. And there are few people that gave us a very nice and polite smile, knowing that we are tourist.

Once arrived to my destination (which is actually not), we got out from the building and walked around, trying to find that place. The temperature was about 14 degree Celsius and I love it. I can feel cold breeze brushing my cheeks and my hands are cold too, so we had to hold each others hand to keep warm. Unfortunately both of us were so into it (appreciating the moment) that we got lost for almost half an hour. Luckily I was calm and didn't panic, I found that place easily after that.

I was planning to walk some more, to appreciate the night and the view, but my friend's mom is getting worried and asked us to go back as early as possible. So we had to go back to Oshiage straight away *sigh*


I miss Japan so much. Or rather, I miss travel so much. I will definitely go to Japan again and this time with the right company. And preferably just the two of us.

Rant #1

The only thing that scare the shit out of me about school right now is the thoughts of having to explain shits to other people, and the thoughts of not be able to blend the fuck in. I think I'll just be my usual loner self because I could not afford to have another friend again, because for fuck sake I can't even keep the ones that I have now.

Monday, August 1

Dear A

My love, where did you see us in the next three years, five years, 10 years, 15 years? Ever since we're together, I've always pray for our happiness in the future. I've always have this image of us together in a foreign place, exploring places and be head over heels for each other. 

But these days, why do I feel so scared these days? I have this mixed feeling and I am so scared. After seeing what happen to people around us, to both of our parents, I am scared.

Come home, and hold me. Tell me that everything is going to be okay.


I think I will be one of those mums who will substitute bed-time stories with Princess Mononoke and Naruto and read it for them each night; and I'll be one of those mums who encourage her children to watch anime and buy lots of manga for them.

Oh my future son and daughter,
Mama loves you xo